Random Thoughts.

These sweet boys are growing up right in front of my eyes! Bronner is now 16 months old and into everything! And we love it! He is so outgoing and full of personality. He really is becoming a sweet little boy and not the baby he once was. He definitely is starting to know what he likes and what he doesn't. He has recently learned that he can scream. Like really loudly! It gets on my nerves so bad. I don't know how to discipline this? We do spank ... only occasionally and for certain things ... I don't think this warrants spanking but a 16 month old doesn't do time out. What else can be done except saying no. It is really getting old fast!! Sawyer is growing up too. Now 3 months old and getting chunky! He almost weighs 15 lbs. I can't believe how fast life is flying bye!

Mimi and Poppy on a recent trip to Firebirds before leaving for UT for awhile!

I have been back at work for about a month now. Waterbirthing under my belt again and loving it! I love natural childbirth! I know I say that all the time but I do. I really wish I could quit my job and be a doula but we need insurance. Well maybe now in this new era of socialism we won't but who wants to rely on the government to supply all their needs? I guess that is a silly question. There are tons of people who do it everyday! So anyway. Dream job ... stay at home with my kiddos and doula about 3 births a month! It would be great. I love being the support person for a natural patient and the great thing about being a doula is you have no liability in the matter. You aren't the one sued if something goes terribly wrong!! The ONLY part of my job that I really don't like. I mean people think that Labor and Delivery is all fun and games ... that is until the unthinkable happens. The unthinkable has been happening at work all the time recently. Miscarriage is like one after the other. I don't know why or what is happening but please make it stop! I love the happy stories we are used to not the sad ones we have been seeing lately. It definitely makes me appreciate my two healthy children more and more but it also makes me think about my own miscarriage. Definitely the most devastating thing that has ever happened to us. It helped our marriage, made us closer, confirmed how badly we both really wanted to be parents, and many more things but I wouldn't wish it on anyone. We have TONS of friends that are preggo right now. It is crazy. Is it crazy that I have a 3 month old and really want to preggo again. Yeah I guess it is! I am thankful for my IUD but part of my heart longs to be preggo again. Maybe one day.

I recently bought a new sewing / embroidery machine and I love it! I never thought I was crafty / artsy but I love using it and it is very relaxing. Now if only I can find a little girl to make things for. I mean sure it is fun to make things for my boys but girls clothes and such are so much more fun to make! Maybe my SIL will have a girl and I can make her all kinds of cute little things. Yep I said SIL. She is preggo and due right after B's 2nd birthday! I couldn't be more excited!!! We love expanding the family and maybe it will cure my baby fever.

Jeremy and Bronner feeing the birds at our recent Zoo trip. Bronner loved it, J not so much!

Well technically I don't really have baby fever. Honestly I just want to be about 32 weeks preggo, feel the baby move, feel great and glowing, and then have those last few weeks before I deliver. Those were the weeks that I love. I know that they are usually the most miserable but they were the greatest for me. I guess I wasn't hooked up to my pump or recovering from surgery. But honestly I really want to deliver again. To see if I can be in more control and experience the "high" of NCB. Yeah you get a high when you don't have an epidural. It is like the "I'm the best mom in the world and I can do anything high". It's a great feeling!! I really hope she has a girl!!

A new pic to end this random post! Just wanted to catch yall up on what has been happening around here and keep up to date for myself! Hopefully I will be more frequent in my postings soon!

Brothers ... getting so big!